As it happens, writing the book, ended up being a form of continued therapy for myself.   Over a six and a half year period, while participating in PTSD therapy clinic counseling at VA Hospitals across America, I wrote some of what we spoke about during those sessions on pieces of paper.  After those sessions I sometimes continued the writing of my memories wherever it was that I was living at the time.  That could have been in the woods in North Eastern Washington, or in a travel trailer, sitting at the beach, or at a friends apartment.  Then, after my counselors at those Hospitals said they could do nothing more for me, I realized that my continued therapy and recovery was left up to me.  In that effort, to get it all out, so to speak, I wrote the book.

     But I'm getting a little ahead of myself here.  Lets go back a bit and I'll explain a few things that will help you to understand what actually happened to me, and why those things took place. 

     "Unlike many in the US who chose to run and hide in foreign countries or in colleges across America to avoid the draft, and by their actions of cowardess avoided the fighting in Vietnam, I actually left high school early in 1965 to join up.  You see, I was born and raised a military brat, a young, still high-school-stupid military minded boy, who  wanted nothing more or less than an opportunity to fight for and defend my country from all those that chose to attempt to change it or control it by force of arms or political manipulation. I am still that person today. 

     Why didn't I wait for the draft to place me in the military?  There were many reasons actually.  But, in fact, I joined before I was drafted in an attempt to have some kind of control over my life, some control over my survival here on earth, at a time when the notion of control was nothing more than a wish and a dream, thanks to the draft and to the war in Vietnam.  I enlisted in the US Air Forece. I joined the Air Force because of the extensive weapons training I'd had every week of my young life, several times a week, while I grew up, being instructed by my own father, an NRA recognized  pistol and rifle match shooter and range officer.  Because of that fact, I knew that if I had waited for the draft, I too would end up dead, lying face down on some battle field or rice paddy in Vietnam with a huge hole in my chest where my heart had been after being placed out in front of the rest simply because I was more capable with a rifle than someone else.  Lets face it, I didn't want to be like all the other boys I'd known who'd died in a very short time for that waiting, their being killed fighting as an untrained FNG grunt, while suffering through, 'on the job training', in the mud, a literal do or die educational experience.  Yes, I tried my best to make the right decission, not the wrong one to stay alive, one that would allow me to do what was right for my country, my family, and my countrymen, honorably.  
     I'd chosen, finally, to become an aircraft mechanic in the United States Air Force.  That said, like many who joined the service back then; President Kennedy had recently been assasinated and I wanted what I thought was pay back for that killing.  You see, after watching the propaganda the US Government wanted me to see on television, I thought President Kennedy had been assasinated by a communist.  We wouldn't know until years later that we had been lied to, manipulated by our own government into thinking he died at the hands of comunist conspirators.  I believe today that it was someone in our own government that wanted him dead.  Anyway, I had met John F. Kennedy face to face and shook his hand when he visited Cheney Stadium in Tacoma, Washington.  He, to my thinking, was an honest man, and a man who didn't take an enemy's shit, and I liked him for that.  I also liked what he stood for in America, all the good things that I had grown up believing in, and therefore I supported his Presidency.    
     I enlisted too, because I wanted to earn an honorable discharge to hang on my wall to prove my bravery to my  family, and to my children one day, like my father and his father before him had done.  But mostly, I wanted to prove to my father that I was just as much an American and just as much a man as he was, and maybe even more. 
     The United States Government promised many benefits to everyone that enlisted or were drafted back then; full medical coverage both during and after we'd served, a paid for college education when we got out, guaranteed housing loans, and a lot more. 

     Well, I fought that war and survived those who wanted me dead both within the US Air Force, my own superiors, and the enemy as well.  But to what end? 

     In my book I outline some of the terroristic treatment I received at the hands of my commanding officers at Sewart Air Force Base in Tennessee, the place the story of Codename Litefoot began, and my commanding officers at Mactan Air Base in the Philippine islands and at Tan Son Nhut Air Base in Vietnam and beyond. 

      Because of the continuous sadistic, and torturous treatment I endured while I served my country I got out of the US Military, suffering with what today is known as PTSD, (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).  Of course US military doctors would rather ignore that analisys and label me with other less demeaning labels to their cause, like my suffering with personality disorders or mental disorders, or whatever else they can come up with.  However, it goes deeper than that in my case.  I suffer much the same way that anyone who had been captured and torturred by the enemy and placed into POW camps, suffers, and the US VA Hospitals refuse to treat me for that or to pay me disability for my suffrages with those symptoms. 

     In all the time that has passed, over 45 years now, since I got out of the United States Air Force, in late 1968, The US Government and its associated Veterans Hospitals, have protected the image of all Military officers by hiding what happened to me, and have also refused to recognize my suffrages with PTSD or for that matter any mental health problems. 
     Because I acquired PTSD while I served in the Military, my suffrages with PTSD is termed a service-connected disability. 
     Service connected means; That what happened to me occured while I served my country in the US Armed Forces.   

     Today I still suffer with PTSD and its associated migraine headaches, panic attacks, rage, and anger management issues, nightmares, flashbacks, unemployability, skin disorders, and related nervous conditions, but I receive no compensation for my suffrages from the US Government or its Veterans Administration.  It was only after failing to receive compensation for my service connected ailments, and after becoming frustrated with their steadfast refusal to compensate me, that I wrote the story, 'Codename Litefoot'.  I figure that since the US Government doesn't want to pay me for my service connected ailments and continued suffrages, coupled with my unemployability issues, that I should write the book, and tell the world the truth.  I thought too, that, in so doing, I might gain an income to support myself.    

     Certainly not all of our Military hero's suffer today with PTSD based on how they were treated or mistreated and or betrayed or tortured by their superiors, (COMMANDING OFFICERS and NCO's) while they served their country, but many do.  However, many with PTSD, caused by something that happened to them while they served, some highly stressful thing, and, it is my belief that many if not most of them are denied compensation for their sufferings by our government, simply to show less of an impact on our economy for their support.  Therefore, mine is not the only case of denial of benefits. 

          To me, as an American citizen, A Veteran, a man who gave himself and his future up to the fight and lay his life on the line for the freedoms all Americans  enjoy every day, this is not acceptable. 
     Therefore, this website is being presented by a disabled US Veteran in the hopes of gaining support for those who do not receive compensation for their service connected disabilities, both physical and or mental, all acquired while they served their country, no matter how they served, no matter where they served, or how long they served.  I say this because our government did not place those stipulations on what they told Americans when we were asked to serve.  These restrictions on our benefits were placed into regulation long after we served our country.  In SHORT, PROMISES WERE MADE!  BUT NOT KEPT!  SURPRISE!  See why!

     All of our Veterans, deserve our countries assistance and support in the areas of income loss due to Unemployability, Medical coverage, Dental coverage, Housing, Schooling, On-The-Job-Training, and more for their having fought for their country.  After all, A promise is a promise, and in my opinion, since the US Government promised all this support to its Veterans when we joined the service back in the 60's, it should shoulder the responsibility and pay American men and women who have served their country for their suffrages, myself included.  They should be made to pay if those injuries or illnesses were combat related or not, for any injury or illness acquired while they served. THIS INCLUDES PTSD... Hopefully, my writing the book to inform the people of my country of what my government has or has not done or is or is not doing for me and other US Veterans will wake someone up, and maybe, just maybe, someone in Washington DC will see a need to respond favorably in my case and in others. But I wouldn't hold my breath, not for long anyway.  You see, I have learned the hard lesson that the US Government lies, and lies, and lies, and does little if anything to truely support its Veterans.  And today, we see that our President, the Congress, and House are all working together to remove even more of the promised support from our Veterans and the rights of our countrymen outlined in our Constitution.   This to my way of thinking this tells me that my government no longer has the futures of the citizens of the United Statets at heart and only wants to change America from a free country to a more subordinate society, like in a socialist society.  I believe that many others think the same way and that is why every American of every age has armed themselves.  They didn't arm themselves to protect their homes from burglers, they armed themselves to defend their homes from government officials and the police or army.   They armed themselves to fight for their rights under a free democracy in  America while living under its Constitutional protections and provisions.  And I believe that we are on the brink of civil war.  Don't misunderstand me... I am not saying that we as Americans should begin a civil war, I am simply saying that I believe that the United States is on the brink of that war.  Americans are tired of war but have armed themselves to fight one because they are tired of the lies, manipulations and downright theft of Americas tax dollar by traitorous and criminal government officials.  Just read on and see what I mean. 

After my own investigation into why the U.S. Government isn't or won't pay our Veterans what they deserve in way of compensation for suffering with PTSD and its associated illnesses, I found this awful fact;

      It appears, to be the policy of the US government, even since when I was in the US Military in the mid to late 1960's, to deny Veterans their benefits.  To have US Veteran Administration and US Military doctors, and I use that term Doctor loosely, pin a label on Veterans who apply for compensation for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, (PTSD).   Instead of listing that person in his or her medical records as having PTSD, Military Doctor's instead, list that person as having a personality disorder, or a mental illness, one that they supposedly previously suffered from before they entered the military.  As a way of not having to pay disability payments to our Veterans, the U.S. Governemnt says that their policy is: they are not responsible for those disorders because these men and women brought their mental illness with them into the military.  This is bullshit of course, however, for them, the U.S. Governemnt, it appears to be good bullshit because it is working.  This little trick, someone in Washington's idea of how to save the government from having to pay Veterans their deserved benefits, allows the US government to deny benefits and compensation to our Veterans.  Myself included... But that is just the tip of the Iceberg.  Read on and see what else the US Government is up to with regard to Veteran benefits. 

          The VA Hospitals across America, for some unknown reason, have built specialized PTSD clinics at various VA's and treats all these Veterans every day of every year for the stresses and related unemployability and mental problems caused by PTSD, free of charge, or nearly anyway.  I know, I've been to most of them while I traveled across the country and attempted to get treatment for my PTSD symptoms.  In my case, I have been treated for having and suffering with PTSD all these years, ever since I got out of the Military.  However, the doctors I've seen didn't say in my records that I have PTSD caused by my sufferings while in the military.  Or did they.  After reviewing my records I found that they do indeed list me as suffering with PTSD.  But still, no compensation.  Hmmmmmmmm.  Who is kidding who here?  Lets look at this thing from a different perspective...        

The question here, for the non-brain-dead anyway, is simple; Didn't everyone have to pass a physical when we entered the US military?  I did!  Much of that physical was a mental test/exam.  You remember, the written and oral mental test/exams we all had to take before we were accepted into the US Military...  So, what gives here?  If you passed all those tests, you were accepted by the U.S. Governemnt doctors as, "Good to Go", and you entered the US Military, PERIOD, END OF DISCUSSION.  That means that you did not have PTSD or any other mental illness at the time you entered the military.  If you did, they would not have passed you and you would not have been allowed to serve in the U.S. Military.  HELLO! 

Because of this little (LIE), this (CHEAT), or (TRICK) if you prefer, thousands of Veterans continue to be unemployable, and therefore homeless, penniless,  forced to live on the streets of our country, the GOOD OLE' US of A, hungry and cold.  Many if not all of whom are now too old and too tired of having to continue their struggle with the VA and the US Government to try to gain any kind of support.  Well, not me.  I have never been able to live the American dream, the one of  owning my own private home and land.  I have never had that kind of security in my life.  I have only been able to live in rentals, under a landlords scrutiny, while I could work.  When I couldn't work, I lived in a tent in the woods or in rental travel trailers, in my car and on the street, or in an animals burrough or dug out shelter.  But still, with all those handicaps, I still wrote my story.  You see, the US Government hasn't learned yet that you can't stop the truth from coming out, and you can't screw everyone all the time and get away with it without the people finding out about it.  But they still try to get away with what they can.  Sooner or later the truth about things will come to the surface and our law makers will be seen for the traitors against their own people that they truly are.  They do still work for us, the people of the United States, don't they?  These are the same people who will, in the end, try anything they can to discredit what I have written about here and in my book, to attempt to save face in America.  Well, that is expected, and if necessary, I will try this in the US Courts, in the face of all Americans. I will shout it from the roof tops if I have to, but a change must be made before anyone else is abused by some sadistic SOB when they join the U.S. Military. 

Sadly, we're all getting pretty old now, we Vietnam era Veterans, so most of us still living in America have simply given up the attempt to get what we deserve from the government at this late date.  The worst part of all of this is that the people our Veterans gave up their lives and their futures for, are today, shunning these men and women, Our Hero Veterans, thinking of them as unwanted and a danger around their homes.  Believe me, these men and women, our Veterans, are the least of their worries, they are in fact the marrow of our society.  Believe this too; if any US homeowner lost his or her income and couldn't pay the mortgage for the home they think they own, they too would be living on the streets and sewers right next to the men and women who fought to keep them free and safe from aggression.  Many of these people are only a pay check or two away from that reality....  And today, since the US Government got control of the housing industry, plus the pricing and financing of those homes, many thousands of people are becoming homeless, all of them understanding now what it means to be a slave to their government.   

The Guaranteed Housing Loans promised to all Vietnam Veterans when they entered one of the branches of our armed forces in the mid 60's was apparently nothing more than that, a pipe dream, a manipulation, an empty promise, one that was not meant to be kept.  The US Government has kept many Veterans from being able to purchase a home, even a modest home just large enough to exist in. due to their having poor credit scores and low incomes due tio their service connected disabilities.  This problem is a direct result of these Veterans being unemployable due to their service-connected disabilities, illnesses the US Government refuses to pay compensation for.  This leads to our Veterans being homeless...  This is just another; Let's see now, how can we get away with not paying for or assisting with Veteran housing like we peomised?  These, FUGI, schemes, in my opinion, are right out of think tanks in Washington DC.  If this situation appalls or angers you as an American, please write to your Senators and to your Congressmen and tell them you, as a United States Citizen, and their employer, want this changed, NOW!  Not Later.